Monday, August 31, 2009
Sunday, August 30, 2009
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Monday, August 17, 2009
Kathryn has almost doubled her birth weight, being 18 lbs, 9 oz. She is 28 inches tall/long. She is doing all the appropriate baby things for her age.
I love doctors appointments for baby/kid well-checks. Time to just talk and discuss my beautiful child(take your pick of which one) with my doctor and reflect on how amazing they are. Kathryn has been in to see the doctor so often lately I feel like setting up a standing appointment every two weeks. After her last appointment I set up an appointment with the urologist in Sept. In talking to my doctor I asked her if she wanted me to move the standard 6 month check up until after that so we could discuss. She said no. "Your child is more than the problem at hand." I like that. Kathryn loves her Mommy. She is very mommy-dependant. Not even Grandma or Aunties can seem to hold her for very long before she demands me. Leila and Nathan loved being held by others. They were very social and there were days I felt they would rather have someone else instead of me. I wondered what it would be like to have a more shy, more dependant child, maybe I even wanted my children to have those traits. Now I know. I am very thankful Daddy is a close second to Mommy. He is able to hold her more than anyone else can. I think its thanks to my asking him to change her diaper first thing in the morning before he goes off to work. Even though she wakes up to my face, its usually Daddy's smile and kisses that start her off while he cleaning her up. Soon, it will be Daddy tending her at night to get her off the midnight buffet.
Saturday, August 15, 2009
We went to the zoo, celebrated the 4th of July, and headed down to Jeremy's parents home where Leila went fishing for the first time, and caught several Rainbow Trout.
We(well, I stayed home with a sick baby) went to see the Gilbert House and Silver Falls. Leila loves children, and loves to play with children, so she had a blast at this Childrens Museum in Salem.
Our weekends were full of fun day trips. We spent one day at Tillamook, Pacific City, Oceanside. We were excited that we were there for the 100th Anniversary of the Tillamook cheese factory and were able to take a shuttle from the Blue Heron Cheese factory down to the TCF. We had lunch and ice cream of course. Yum.
Back in Portland we went to the Chinese Gardens with my Dad, using yet again a pass from the library.
We spent a day bowling and hitting baseballs with Sister Martin and Sister Bennett- who are close to Leila's age and enjoyed visiting with her. Then that weekend we headed back out west up to Astoria, Ft. Stevens, Peter Iredale shipwreck.
We LOVE YOU Leila! And we miss you too!
Wednesday, August 12, 2009
Well, yesterday we had a break thru. Leila-Girl. Leila can make her sister smile and be happy during the entire process. And it shouldn't surprise me as I think back on it. When Nathan was a wee little one he had some problems with bronchitis and asthma and allergies made it pretty scary for us. After having spent a day in the ER as his blood oxygen was too low, we had him home and we had to give him his first breathing treatment. He howled. Jeremy and I and hated doing this to him. Our little Leila was just about 18 months- she didn't know what to do. She was so distressed for her brother. She was howling a bit too, running around not knowing what to do. After about 5 minutes of us confining Nathan and both Jeremy and I being quite stressed out, Leila simply come over and grabbed Nathan's hand. He calmed a little bit. But life was better for everyone. I remember tearing up as I saw the love she had and her natural ability for compassion and ability to nurture. I know I will see her personality continue to grow in this capacity. It is truly a blessing to watch this sweet little girl.
Mind you, I did NOT eat like this every day. I became overweight going to buffets once in a while, eating out at restaurants(and finishing my plate which was something I was NOT taught to do) at least weekly, working a sit-down-job, not moving very much, taking medication that slowed my heart rate making me tired as heck that motivated me even less for exercise, the simple change in metabolism as I grew, sigh, older. Oh yea, add a few babies into the mix and I was simply doomed.
Before Kathryn was conceived, I lost my excess weight thanks to Weight Watchers, and the support of many of my friends. I really didn't think putting it back for the baby would be a big deal- I have always said a baby is worth any amount of weight- so long as he or she is healthy. Of course, I only gained 15-20 pounds with Leila and Nate. Kathryn's pregnancy gave me several health issues I hadn't had to deal with, including a quick week of bedrest. I gained almost all of the weight I just lost the previous year and half back. It was very uncomfortable for me to see these "numbers" going back up. I watched them all as they went down thinking I would never see them again. But baby making and weight loss is a big no-no, so I dealt with it. Now, I have about 30 pounds to get back to where I was before blessing #3 came into my life. I lost more than that- I can do that again- right? Yes- I CAN! And I have started on that journey, trying to do it on my own before I start shelling out $ to WW again. Thanks to my sweet friend Mandy who is on this journey with me, we are doing it together.
So, back to the *subject* of my post: Changs Mongolian Grill. Jeremy *LOVES* changs. If I want to go out to eat and we have numerous reasons not to, I can suggest there and he has no will-power to say no. With kids now, we don't go there much. Leila loves shrimp without breading, so we make her up a bowl of shrimp and noodles. She loves it. Nathan won't touch anything, so we pay for him to have a soda for dinner and little bowl of ice-cream for dessert.
We took Leila (from Belgium) there last night. Now.... being a weight watcher I have decided its totally worth any points. BUT- I am smart about it. I do one bowl full of veggies, and another bowl with lean meat a few noodles. I don't skimp on the sauce because its just too yummy. Weight Watchers is a trade off-- there is nothing I can not eat, I just need to make sure my points are worth it.
There is a conflict though. You stand in line with heaping bowls full of yummy, raw goodness. You watch as they take your yumminess and cook it on the big BBQ. You wait patiently as they cook it thoroughly anticipating the moment they scoop it onto a huge plate for you to sprinkle with sesame seeds. You then parade your plate back to your table and enjoy thoroughly.
Herein lies the conflict. Rather, herein lies MY CONFLICT: That is a lot of food. I get incredibly self-conscious standing in these little lines. What do these men cooking my food think of me? Am I eating more than the average person? Do they think I deserve to be 30 pounds overweight because of the way I am eating? What do the people in line think of me, or are they so focused on their own plates that they could care less? Why do I care what any one else thinks? Am I feeling guilty because I am indulging, even if this is perhaps the first time in days that I have indulged? All this conflict from the moment I put down my heaping bowls of raw food, to putting down a hot steaming plate of food on my table.
I get over it and eat it. Eat it all. Since my WW journey, I never go back for seconds, and I rarely have that completely over the top full feeling(just a good full feeling). I do enjoy my fortune cookie. Sometime I splurge with the ice-cream. On my way home I always examine my conflict and wonder what the heck is wrong with me? Who cares? Enjoy one night out! But its thoughts I have almost every time I go there.
I wonder if anyone else thinks that way, or if its simply my awareness my food issues. I am actually amused at the psychology of the whole eating process and laugh at myself. For if I can't laugh life is just too serious. And if I laugh, why shouldn't you?
Oh and wish me luck on my 30 pound weight loss.... I will let you know how it is going.
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
She has kidney reflux on both sides- the left is a level 4 out of 4. The right is a level 2. I set up an appointment for a urologists on Sept. 10th to have him take a looksee at her test results so we can make an action plan. We started her on antibiotics to clear up the current infection. Likely she will have to be on a low dose of antibiotics for a year or two and then they will reassess the issue and discuss any surgical needs. The dr. said she is likely to grow out of a 2, but probably not a 4. Poor baby. Its just not right.
She is in good spirits though, just only wanting to be with Momma. I appreciate all of my friends concern and prayers.